April 25, 2012


sigh…

i wish i could make a greater influence in other people’s lives.  that might seem like a prideful ambition, but i truly desire to be someone that people look to for encouragement.

as of now i’m just the tall awkward kid that’s kinda bipolar/super flirty with girls.  right? i think that’s a safe assumption.  

that’s not who i want to be though.  i’m not expecting God to change me into a perfect person (no matter how hard I pray), but i want to be better than the person i am.

better than someone who not only struggles with, but also sins with acts of lust, lethargy, and general lack of self control.  better than someone that fills up a day with extracurricular activities then complains about bad grades.  better than someone who has an often offensive sense of humor and a tendency for bluntness.  better than who i am. 

i am not saying that who i am now is horrible, for God made me this way.  but i know that God also intended for this to just be the shell of who i can be.  somewhere inside is the person that i imagine.  a more Christ-like man that can really be a rock in both KCCC and GSF ministries.  i really hope that the transformation isn’t too slow.  

i don’t want to be impatient but at the same time i truly desire to know Him and myself better.

humblehumblehumble.


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